please stand by. technical difficulties.

I remember when that was the screen message for TV oopsies.  Now my cable just says 'temporarily off air. try again later'.  Seems like the first message had more connection, - 'we're having trouble, but don't go away, please,'-  though the second is perhaps just as accurate and probably just as useful.
My life is crazy right now.  I'm trying to process a lot mentally and emotionally.  I am dealing with 'issues' of many kinds.  Frankly I've run out of suggestions and I probably would rather gripe than hear more. 
The worst part of any renovation is waiting on materials or looking for things you used or saw quite recently.  I'm on my second hunt and about to reach a great patience testing wait.  So my processing has been a little negative today. 
I got started later than I pleased.  I began hunting for a bit that I couldn't find yesterday afternoon, but had to have to continue.  I considered just hitting Lowes and getting another, but I had the thing yesterday morning.  I found it in a 'Goodgrief Donna' spot and finished putting in the framing for the last part of my screened in porch.  Now I can't find the staples that I've moved a dozen times during this whole renovation stint  -while looking for other things.
As I said, the bad mood hasn't helped my reasoning powers toward positive.  I know all the pat answers, but I find that somethings don't really get better, you just endure them and hope someday things will get brighter, as the music says.  Popping out little smart mouthed negatives is one way to deal with it.  But that doesn't really win you much on the home front or in the arena.
Physically, I have my downs, but most of it is way up in comparison to the past year or so.  I've lost 15 lbs.  That in itself makes walking and climbing and general housework easier.  I'm beginning to eat a variety of foods, but not much more quantity.  I am watching for signs of disability very carefully, and keeping a fairly good journal of the things I eat. 
So if I don't post much, you will know that the things my mind does while my body is busy are not really something you want to read about.  I'm hoping to reclaim intelligent thought soon and begin my story telling in a different light.  Till then, Please Stand By, . . . . .