The intensity of now

The intensity of now is amazing.  I love my children.  They are grown and that brings a different dimention to the relationship, but it does not effect the love or the desire for success and honor.  So at this hour, I have at least 4 of 5 bearing incredible stress and this tears my heart and tightens against my soul.  I have no one to go to except my father for hope that it has a purpose and an eventual rightness.  There are those who care: my husband, my mom, my periferal family, my church.  And my girls care for each other very much.  But these are as powerless as I am to effect the needs involved.  And so I pray.  And so I pray.  And so I pray. . . . . . .It is a beautiful day full of stuff.  The coffee is good.  The sun shines.  The air is clean.  I am blessed amid the chaos. . . . . I pray that for you this day as well.

find the joy in your pile

Beautiful sunrise.  Gorgeous wet cool morning with just a bit of cloud in the far east to make it interesting.  The coffee is yummy and my niece arrived safe and sound.  I had taken some trash out to the recycle bin and was coming back when she drove up just after 6:30.  The birds start heralding the morning early here and there was barely a tinge of light to the sky.  She lay down about 7 for a nap after driving all night.  I'm thankful she is here and safe and am looking forward to finding what mischief we can get into!  I hope your day is sweet and blessed and you find the joy in your pile of stuff.

from here and there

Anticipation has engergized my already hyperactive state.  I woke very early, got up and did a few things and lay back down.  Then in a short span, I was sorting and cleaning and dusting and storing away.  I have housefulls on the horizon from here and there and different sides of my universe.  I have people who come out of duty and people who come of pure joy.  But it would seem they will converge in my world for a time.  I'll grab the joy of it and smile from ear to ear.  The girlie had reached epic levels of noise and activity this morning, perhaps as a reaction to my own and perhaps as a reaction to her expectations.  At any rate, it will be a good day today and a good day tomorrow and after that for a time.Good success, good coffee, good sunshine.  It's already a good day.  Be blessed my friends.

much to enjoy and be grateful for

Woke way too early - 3ish - turned on the WC and after a short watch dozed off.  Roused only enough to turn the TV off and then woke just before 7.  This is not a good plan.  So I'm waiting now on the time to call mom before beginning on the last door in the shower room.  I had hoped to be mostly done when I called mom. . . . . . It cleared last night and I had hoped to get pictures of the moon this morning.  But I woke to daylight and a cloudy sky at that.  Sunrise wasn't spectacular, but it did happen.  The morning is cool, but not as chilly as yesterday.  The high is supposed to get near 70 today.  Though lower than what we've been having, it's still quite a bit above the average for this time of year. . . . . .  The flat part of my back yard is full of little marshes to be navigated.  We've gotten close to 3 times our normal rainfall for March already and have another 2 days of rain forecast before the months end.  The world is flourishing. . . . . I have much to enjoy and much to be grateful for this day.  I am blessed.  I hope your day is also, my friends.

promises

Another cool rainy morning.  I had the last three doors for my shower room cut out before the girlie woke.  I finished putting one frame together and then we had a good breakfast -she had blueberry mini-wheats and I had a waffle with strawberries, blackberries and whipped cream.  I had a cup of that awesome coffee and came to check on my people here before finishing the two other door frames.  It's been a good day so far and only promises to get better as we go.  I hope you are blessed and safe this day.

There is a freshness to the world

I woke really early, but didn't start getting up and around until a little after 6:30.  It's chilly and rainy, though not at all cold.  There is a freshness to the world.  We got a fair amount of rain, but was spared the forecasted severe weather.  I've gotten into a 'lazy day' habit that I truly must break.  The girl and I are fixing to make something grand as soon as the cleaning is finished.  It's hard to stay on task though.  We took some photos (I'm teaching her to use the DSLR) and they turned out very well.  We had apple fritter bread and malto-meal for breakfast-two of my lesser foods.  Veggies and fruit are definitely on the lunch menu.  The coffee is so yummy.  I still haven't made anything but pinon coffee since Friday midday.  I will get used to it and back to the various taste preferences one of these days.  For now it's still got my attention.  I hope you have a great day and are blessed in all things.

little girl sounds

My daughter came in about 1AM to pick up her girl. They took back out a little before 1:30. So I am a one girl gramma today. I woke about 5, but lay back down and woke again late. . . . . . It's been a lazy morning. We had waffles with fruit for breakfast. And I pulled on a pair of Capris that I've not been able to wear comfortably for many years. They fit good! I don't know why I saved them, but I'm glad I did. . . . . I'm teaching the girl to use an SLR and choose pictures. She's doing okay, learning to isolate and work with the mechanics of it. . . . . . . Our world has 100 percent chance of rain until Wednesday evening. I'm hoping it's not so, though this is the time for replenishing ground water and such. So I'm not hoping too vigorously for the rain to stop. I do hope the storms will not damage stuff with water, hail or wind. I'm getting my mind in a very nice fix on spring and all the growy stuff about my world. . . . . . . The coffee is good. The temps are nice and my world is full of little girl sounds. Hope your day is blessed.

an awesome night

84 at 6:30  76 at 9.  What an awesome night.  We had the first fire of the season in our fire pit.  With two little girls we roasted hotdogs (hebrew nationals) and corn on the cob with cheese dip and chips and finished off with  toasted marshmallows on graham crackers.  The sky was beautiful.  The fire was awesome and everyone seems kind of happy-mellow.  Love my new serving bar/wood holder and my not so new firepit.  Very awesome night.

My new norm

My new norm for wake-up time seems to be about 5:50.  The girls helped me make pizza for supper and we left the kitchen in a mess.  It took me the better part of an hour to put it all right!  I think that may be a record for me.  A cloudy sky is lightening toward the day -finally.  I've waited to make coffee because everyone is asleep and my grinder is noisy.  But I'm headed in to make some now -pinon coffee from red rock roasters.  It will be a good day.   I hope you are blessed this 17th day of March in the year 2012.

no one ask my permission

Woke shortly before 6AM. I'm not loving DST, but noone ask my permission to do that. It's after 7:30 and the sky is turning pink preparing for the advance of the sun. I like to work early in the morning. My lesson times didn't change with the clock last weekend, so I will accomplish less than I wish outside. I've cleaned and such inside already. But now it's light and I will get busy hauling some dirt and doing some things that matter only to me. Be blessed my friends.

entries

I mailed my competition entries, went to the bank and Sam's where I stocked up on more veggies and bought some things I didn't really need, but thought I did.  Funny how that happens.  Now to do a little dirt work before getting things ready for our fellowship group.  It's nearly hot outside. Such a beautiful day.  Blessings.

wandered out and got busy

gorgeous warm morning. i wandered out for devotions and got busy.  now the morning has gone away with much left to do.  have a great day friends.

Mayan soccer

The Mayans were interesting.  There was a lot more to them than the calendar.  They had a game similar to soccer except it was played with a large stone ball.  How fun does that sound?  And then there was the part about the losers being killed by the victors.  Now that would make "it's not whether you win or lose, but how you play the game that counts" a pretty invalid concept.

Forget cake??!

I woke with a horrid headache.  It's 'lose an hour' night, and my automatic clocks told me it was later than my body thinks it is. . . .  3 of my g-kids were down for the night and I made pizza.  Kenlei said "Does Olivia ever help you make pizza?" I said she has and so I had help!!  She's very efficient at what she decides to do.  I get tickled.  We created two flavors on one pizza.  They are big pizzas so it was like we had 4 smaller pizzas.  They enjoyed it and then I cleaned the Christmas stuff from the back room and we watched a movie together. . . . . . When I told them what we were watching, Tim said he had seen it.  I asked him what it was about and he said he didn't want to spoil it for the other kids.  In the end, he really had seen it but all three were glued to the movie and I had to pause it for bathroom breaks and such because they didn't want to miss any. . . . . Louis bought a cake to celebrate Amanda's birthday, but we got busy and forgot to eat it.  In all, it was a pretty good night.

what a day

Ahhhh, what a day it has started to be.  I woke early and read my bible with coffee and pencil in hand.  Much to think on.  I glazed a couple of ceramic pieces and began the kiln process which I have finally closed the lid on. I called my mom and we talked a lot and read a little.  Sometimes it makes me happy sometimes not so much.  Perhaps she will never really have any use for me and perhaps I will just never see the value she holds.  Either way it is God's and I love my mama.  Nuf said.  A bit of cleaning and maintenance (fish tank filter) ended with a fishwater shower.  It is a gorgeous day if a little cool.  I plan to do a good piece of stucco and brick work early so that if we get more rain it will have time to set.  I came to FB and found myself getting riled up.  Israel attacked, the Bible attacked.  But you know our God is intelligent and faithful and capable.  Nuf said.  I hope your day is blessed.

We need the rain

Got up a little before 6AM to some pretty hard rain and a lot of wind.  That has been the way morning has gone here.  We have a 72% chance all day.  I hope that maybe if we have a break, I can get out and finish trimming the crepes in the back side yard, chop up the trimmings and put them into my firepit to await my first pitfire of the season.  I'm ready for that.  My back yard is a mess and needs cleaned.  There is a defunct water heater out there that I hope makes it into a refuge recepticle somewhere soon.  Some shopping, door making, and maybe a little personal studio time are in the 'suppose' column for today, since it appears to be a washout.  We need the rain: I will give thanks.  Blessings, friends.

A dream world apart.

Two qualifiers to this dream need to be set in place before the dream is told.  There is a home where I live in my dreams.  I dream it frequently and have for years.  I've never seen it.  It may well be a composit of many homes I have had close relationship to, but if so, it was part of my dreamscape before I lived in some of those places.  It has been a curious place that sometimes has been full of joy and sometimes full of fear, anger or sadness.  I have received true warnings and precognitive revelations within that setting that played out in other true physical locales.  I have gotten comfortable referring to it as home, though I've never physically seen it if it does exist.  Do what you want with that information, but that is the home of this dream.
The second qualifier is that this dream was totally comfortable.  It should have terrified me, but it didn't.  I wanted a resolution after I woke, but not as an escape from fear.  I have not ever gone through anything as fantastic as this and don't really expect to, but it was just 'the way things are' in the dream.  Life was already established in the surreal.
In the dream, I was sitting in a chair on the front porch of my 'home' with a cup of coffee and my keys in my hand.  After I woke, I realized I had no cell phone in the dream- no phone at all in the dream.  I was recalling an outing that had been pleasant as I sat and watched my surroundings in the early morning.  I was the watcher.  It was a responsibility I shared with the others in turn.  This was my watch and I surveyed the world about me as I thought.  I wish the trails were truly part of my physical world.  I feel I know them so well.  In my thoughts I recalled walking in the hills near our home, as we have often done in my dreams, when the eruptions began.  The earth had shaken and an explosion had occurred in front of us - a small but effective breaking of earth and sound with a large plume of orange tinged smoke following.  It appeared to come from inside the ground.  We were not injured but decided to turn homeword. 
On our way home we saw signs of devastated houses and other buildings.  Again there was no alarm, just recognition.  My thoughts continued as I watched.  My neighborhood seemed quite empty except for my yard and this remembering process went on for some time in my dream.  As I watched, small plumes of smoke would rise at various points in the distant land scape, but my area was still.
My yard slopes down toward the street and at a distance of maybe a block, it rises into other streets.  On that hill side I saw a house collapse and a woman ran out screaming.  I called to her to ask if she needed help.  She called back frantically "Please!"  There was no plume of smoke, only a crumpled house.  I was surprised someone was there but not at the fall of the house.  I called back "Okay," and went inside my empty house to get some supplies.
I gathered a few things and started out the side door.  We had a large driveway which was completely filled with vehicles where people were sleeping.  My car was blocked in.  I was trying to figure out how to get it out without waking the others, when my daughter came out of a large vehicle that looked like one of those conversion vans for travelling.  She looked very sleepy and blinked hard.  I didn't explain anything and she walked into the house.  My concern was for the fact that I was not watching and I was the watcher.  Yet I should help the woman across the way.  I woke up.
The dream will not leave my mind alone.  Waking up seemed more like walking back into my living room than mentally rousing from a dream.  Yet, the hardest thing to think through is the way I felt about things - and perhaps the feelings I did not have. 

I believe in dreams

I woke from a strange dream at about 4:30 this morning. It was less like waking than like moving from one room to another.  I believe in dreams -all of them.  Even the 'pizza dreams' and the 'sick body dreams' are a part of something trying to work itself out in our mind.  But some dreams kind of hold you captive.  They won't let you say "Oh well, . . " and get on with something else.  Perhaps I will offer the dream in a blog.  If you are on FB, that means you will have to read it at Multiply if you are interested.  This day needs to be full.  I rose early when I could not sleep and made waffles for the freezer - yes Louis and I had some.  In a little I will call my mother.  We will see if the dream  lets go.  Blessings friends.

Just a thought

During my morning reading, it occurred to me that John was not expecting the Lamb, he was expecting the Lion.  He was expecting Jesus to walk in and set things straight with force.  It's just a line of thought.  What are we expecting of Jesus that he just might not meet?  I remembered that one day John sent people to ask him if he was really the one.  The misunderstanding of John did not change his action, his destiny or his effect.  Just a morning thought.  Today began cool, but promises a warm-up.  I have much to do and am not real sure what to tackle first.  I hope your day is blessed.

You did good

got an e-mail that said it was from You Tube and they had approved my video.  I opened it because I didn't know what the heck it was talking about.  Well, my virus protection jumped on it like a frog on a nest of flies.  It's nice to know the thing does more than just telling me it has updated twice a day.  Thank you Avast.  You did good.

Little glitches

I was more than tired last night.  I had planned to have everything ready to move the washer and dryer back into place this morning early.  Then I had a cancellation that freed my entire morning, so I set what I thought was a reasonable goal and worked until my mind was dull and my body gave out.  I've been waking quite early and yesterday I was up before 5.  I stepped into the shower at 10.  But good to say the area for the washer and dryer is done.  Just waiting on the mr to return from some errands and it can be reassembled.  The whole room is not done.  Little glitches here and there that will need to be attended.  Nothing big.  It's a beautiful day outside.  I have roses to plant and sun to soak up.  But not much will be done before I get in my studio this afternoon.  Be blessed.

March has arrived

It's a crisp feeling morning, though it is 50 degrees. The sky is beautiful and the forecast is for upper 70s on this first day of March. March is a month of great contrasts historically. I remember one March when my older two were babies when we had temps in the 90's and got sunburns on Sunday and Monday night it snowed resulting in 15 inches within a few hours. Two years ago this month, on my grandson's wedding day, we had a heavy gorgeous snow. Luckily the temps didn't dip so far with the heavy wet snow that we lost the plants that were blooming. So March has arrived. I pray for grace and mercy. I bask in the beauty emerging about me. Be blessed, my friends.