Tuesday, May 8, 2012

May 8, 2012

This morning I realized that for most of my childhood people concentrated on what was wrong about me: life was about the 'didn't do's and the 'don't do's and the 'you did that's. I was nervous, noisy, and boisterous. I was backwards, upsidedown and sideways. My father, a friend and one teacher stand as the exception. Even as an adult it has often been the case. As a result I have concentrated on the 'left out's, the 'not enough's and the soul injuries. With God as my witness, I close that door this morning. I wept as I saw it for the first time in that way. They were good and healing tears.
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11 comments:

  1. Donna WoodallMay 8, 2012 at 7:37 AM

    And no, I'm not promising to not be obnoxious any more.

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  2. Mel WeinerthMay 8, 2012 at 8:55 AM

    Those who love us love us for who we are not who they want us to be an it is strange to look back an realize that some times we were not who one or some times both parents want us to be.

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  3. What's left of Rusty .May 8, 2012 at 9:54 AM

    To just "walk away" is a gift from God ...

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  4. Donna WoodallMay 8, 2012 at 10:33 AM

    You know it wasn't a walk away thing really, it was that I've been critical so much of my life. Always seeing what needed fixed. I've prayed about the attitude of 'injury' that has hampered me the last few years -yes it may have been justified, but it wasn't good or right. And this morning I was griping to God about something that had happened that shouldn't have and I began to see myself in light of all the criticism for everything from lack of hairstyle, to inability to sit still, to whatever -and I did do it. Suddenly I realized that I had worked my whole life to be 'right and acceptable to the critics' and developed a critical spirit along the way. It was a very revealing and cleansing time of acceptance and understanding. I cried a good bit, but not sad. I realize I am okay and other people don't have to decide my frame of mind.

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  5. Simon VogtMay 9, 2012 at 1:07 AM

    There was that one time, when there was an absence of cheesecake, but I'm over it now. I'm glad you're not turning your back on obnoxious, I'd hate to be the only one ;)

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  6. Donna WoodallMay 9, 2012 at 5:06 AM

    Yes Simon, I will be obnoxious AND I will fail at times -like with the cheesecake. Get over it! . . . . . . . . Hey, I kinda like this new me! LUASMK

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  7. Simon VogtMay 9, 2012 at 5:16 AM

    Ha! Me too :D

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  8. Simon VogtMay 9, 2012 at 5:24 AM

    I could use some help with the accronym though

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  9. Donna WoodallMay 9, 2012 at 6:08 AM

    Well part of my new obnoxiousness is putting things into acronyms of the moment and forgetting what they were. JK Laughing Uncontrollably and Slapping My Knees. I really don't Roll on the Floor much these days and I've had no success Laughing my butt off.

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  10. Simon VogtMay 9, 2012 at 6:10 AM

    Ah I see... APM ;)

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  11. LT .May 9, 2012 at 8:08 PM

    A new year and a new peace? I admire and respect your transparency and your willingness to learn as well as to teach.

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