Can you fix what you break?
7 On the first day of the week we came
together to break bread. Paul spoke to the people and, because he intended to leave
the next day, kept on talking until midnight . 8 There were many lamps in the upstairs room where we were
meeting. 9 Seated in a window was a young man named Eutychus, who was
sinking into a deep sleep as Paul talked on and on. When he was sound asleep,
he fell to the ground from the third story and was picked up dead. 10 Paul went down, threw himself on the young man and put his
arms around him. “Don’t be alarmed,” he said. “He’s alive!” 11 Then he went upstairs again and broke bread and ate. After
talking until daylight, he left. 12 The people took the young man home alive and were greatly
comforted.
“I didn’t mean to
break it.” “Now that doesn’t really
matter, does it?” I’ve often had this
exchange with my beloved granddaughter after a clumsy, inattentive moment
brought some item into useless, irreparable pieces on the floor. It is not meant to disparage or demean and
she knows it. The purpose of the
statement has nothing to do with the broken item and she knows it. We’ve discussed it before.
Often, if I see
her headed for one of those disasters, I will say “If you break it, will it
matter that you didn’t mean to?” It is
an effort to bring her actions into the conscious realm and make her more aware
of consequences for thoughtless behavior.
I hope it has an even greater long term effect than to protect my or her
pretties from breakage.
Let me interject
here that I am fully aware that things are not as important as people. Nothing I have is as important to me as that
blue-eyed wonder times 20. My
grandchildren are eternally precious to me.
For years my motto was “It’s only stuff!” There is a reason why stuff loses value as
soon as you buy it. It is meant to be
replaced. But I saw a problem with thoughtless action and set
out to do my part in making their world a better place.
Eutychus had no
clue when he sat down in that 3rd story window that it could be the last night
of his life. I can’t blame him for
dozing off. I’m not good at sitting in
one place and listening to even a television program without drifting off. I carry a sketchbook so I can stay awake and
listen in the church service. But what if
I knew it would be my last night on earth?
Well, I’d have a hard time sitting still for sure, but I wonder if I
might just be a little more cautious of my actions.
Often we rush
headlong into a discussion or a situation without giving thought to what we
might ‘break’. I had a horrid nightmare a few years back. I was trying to help this young child who could not walk and nothing was working and I cut off the child's leg. Standing there in horror at what I had just done, I said 'How am I going to fix this?" It was a disturbing dream and I woke unsettled and full of questions. In the end, I realized some profound truth in the considerations. Among those concepts discovered was the question "Can we mend or heal in
the event that we wound or destroy?" Paul
rushed down and covered the boy. He took
him up alive and people were comforted.
I imagine the boy didn’t sit back down in the window for the rest of Paul's discourse and it says the people in
that crowd were ‘greatly comforted.’ But
what impact do you suppose the event might have carried into the days ahead.
For me, each time
I warn my granddaughter, it is a warning to myself: “Consider the outcome of
your actions.” I still make impulsive
mistakes. I still break things
thoughtlessly, so does she. Yet
sometimes I hear her say to herself “Be careful,” or “Slow down,” and I wonder
if in her mind the thinks “If I break it the fact that I didn’t mean to will
not make it unbroken.”
Now, if we can
carry that outside the realm of trinkets, toys and dishes.
I suppose that I still have a few things left to break ... but these days, what is broken remains broken and will likely remain broken when I depart. I just hope that the important things I have left will remain unbroken until then.
ReplyDeletemost of the time, things broken are just that...things but every once in awhile bumbling, or rough housing, or just plain carelessness have broken something very important to me. That is generally the only time I will let "whomever" know that it meant something to me, it was of value and their actions have changed that little piece of serenity. Of course, I then drop it, but I want them to know cause and effect.... I find myself even, as Livie does, telling myself to think, or slow down.
ReplyDeleteNice blogging there my dear.