Seek and you will find

The greatest tactic of Satan since the Garden of Eden has been speaking the word of God sarcastically, partially, or out of context to the point that people without God are left hopeless and the people of God are left confused or without motivation. With his guidance, people have learned to confuse God's word to the point that it is useless in their lives and ineffective in the lives of others. God's word becomes the unattainable, the impossible, the ludicrous.

Some choose to ignore themselves and judge others; some choose to ignore others and judge themselves. Either approach is damaging.  God's word is a light to shine into darkness; it is not a club to wound us. We were wounded by our transgressions, but Jesus took the wound upon himself. We were bruised by our iniquities, but Jesus took the bruise upon himself. We deserve to be punished, but he was punished from the beginning so we could have peace.  He took all of our sin. To us it was a moment in history, to God it was a done deal.

He is creator-redeemer. Isaiah, years before the birth of Jesus, said he was bruised for our iniquities –past tense. In Genesis, God told Eve she would have a child that would crush Satan's head. In the New Testament we are told Jesus was crucified before the foundation of the world. He created us anyway. If he went to that trouble, how can we assume he would not meet us or that he would be the author of our confusion? If he would be willing to devise salvation before he founded the Earth, how could he not be searching for our souls every moment?

It is not wrong to read or listen to advice or explanations by others, but we need most often, to get alone with God's word and let it explain itself to our spirits. He is anxious to do that. He will do that. He will not tell you something that denies the essential parts of his being. He will not leave you in condemnation with out redemption.  But there are those who will say we must follow other people’s understanding so we won’t become misled.  That puts a lot of credit on people who historically and characteristically blow it!  Pride comes in quickly when one becomes exalted to spiritual leader status.  Listen, learn, but then spend time alone with God letting him apply it to your individual heart.

If we seek him totally and purely, we will find him. If we are searching the scriptures to prove a point or to support our lifestyle, regardless of what that is, we will succeed, but we will not find God. We don't have to complicate it. Get alone. Get your Bible. Ask God to meet you there, and walk in.  It will work. The word of God will not ignore you, it will purify you. The word of God will not excuse you, it will restore you.  The word of God will not condemn you, it will redeem you.  Perhaps that is why Jesus taught “The pure in heart will see God.”  If you go wanting to get something other than God's word, you will find what you are looking for – but you will miss the truth.  If you do not want to find the true God, you will find confusion.

If you don't have time to meet with him, be honest and come back when you do. He will respect your honesty and he will honor your return when you're ready to receive his truth. God is not flighty or impatient. That being said, he knows the truth of who we are and what we seek. He understands the heart. He is already where we are going.

That is how I experience it; that is how I understand it; that is how I see it.  I'm not the end of all wisdom, just a seeker.  I hope it blesses you in some way.