Wednesday, February 1, 2012
differently
This past 24 hours have been crammed with thought. Yesterday was an unusual day that left me with so much to consider. I love my family, I love my church and my church family -two things there, yeah. Neither group is perfect by some standards, but they are pretty good to my heart and mind. Six months ago I just wanted them all to behave - grrrrrrrh. What I really meant was I wanted them to behave differently. But the last couple of months, I've begun to look differently. I'm realizing that the sight from the inside is something I can influence by simple decisions. I'm still me, they are still who they are. But I'm seeing it differently and a lot of that is by choice. So what if I'm a fool and an old fool at that? What if I'm not? Be blessed.
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Some time we can change how we feel some times it even changes how we look at others some times not But worthy of trying.
ReplyDeleteI think it is merely a case of responsibility changing. You had to take on one set of responsiblities as a young wife and mother. Then those responsiblities changed as life happened. In the end, they have to be responsible for you. Poetic justice ...
ReplyDeleteI'm sure that is why God had put int the new testiment that we are to pray for others, even those who spitefully use us, pray for our enemies (sp?) ... it refocuses our thought pattern and helps us love them and ourselves better. ;) I have always wanted to be liked for who I am, not what others want me to be, not that I don't have room for improvement I even see that, but the deep down moral fiber of me wants to be loved for who I am. I try to love others in the same manner ... there are a few who drive me crazy tho and I'd really like to change them, but I know I can't, step back and start the prayer cycle over again. :) Have a blessed day Donna.
ReplyDeleteI can't see my grown children ever being responsible for me. I guess in one way, I became responsible for my parents for a time. My sister is responsible for my mom now in many ways. But it was a different world and we were different people. The only one who has told me she was going to take care of me scared me silly!! Poetic justice, perhaps. For now, neither is true. My 'caregiving' is a simple matter of prayer and, as I'm learning, smiles. Transferring responsibility both physically and emotionally.
ReplyDeleteI am praying for a couple of friends who have marriages at various stages of deterioration and sometimes you just want to yell '-grow up, will ya!!!' One couple went through a recent crisis of epic proportions and when I mentioned to another friend that it was good to see them working together on the same wave length, he replied "Somethings require you to puy aside your stupid petty selfishness." Sadly, it wasn't a long term action on either part. Seeing it play out makes you think about a lot of things - not just marriage.
ReplyDeletewe grew up in the "in it for the long haul", "build a bridge and get over it", "anything worth having is worth working for, "when the battle gets tough.................", you know..... but what i see so often in this generation and the new generation is "instant gratification" and "it's broke, get me another one"....
ReplyDeleteI frequently grit my teeth, smile a grim little smile and let them get on with whatever they are doing in the moment.
I still am not handling some things gracefully...not sure I ever will but it really isn't a big deal in the grand scheme of things.
ReplyDeletetalked to the afore mentioned friend last night. they had dinner out (still separated) and had written letters to each other per counselor's suggestion. they read them and talked amiably about them. i'm taking that as a blessing and answer to prayer. God is good in all things.
ReplyDeleteif ignoring the problem and singing praise songs is handling it, i'm handling it! God so needs my input to solve the problems of the universe -not.
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